Thursday, February 25, 2010

Sad Day

I write this with a sad and heavy heart.We lost our little Murry last night.He did not get better after his second trip to the vet.He spent his last moments much like he spent his short life snuggled in our laps by the fire.He will be greatly missed.He had a huge, spoiled rotten personality and was overflowing with cuteness.

I know this is part if farm life,but that doesn't mean I feel his loss any less.I take comfort that in his short life all he new was love and kindness from his human family.I really felt that out of all The Boy's goaties,that Murry was kind of mine.I will miss him underfoot in the kitchen talking to me in his little goatie mumble that he did.

I do think maybe more was wrong with him that  what we thought....he had different symptoms toward the end...I just don't know.He had a lot of the symptoms his momma had when she died..I wonder a little if is was some defect passed down.. I will never know but my mind will always wonder.We try and give our goaties the best,best food ,hay and medicine...it is getting.. well ..frustrating .Even The Boy said last night  maybe we are just  not meant to have goats.Nibbles is due in a few weeks ,I almost feel a sense of dread,of what have we done...there is no going back now.She and Doodah are both due in March.I hope and pray things are OK for them and their babies.Everything else we raise here we have done well with.I just can't believe the bad luck we have had with the goats.

In hind sight...being slightly more experienced..we bought Guinness(Murry's mom) and Sweet Pea from the same place...looking back now I would not have bought them from where we did,it was not the best place and I am almost certain she was not honest about some things,Sweet Peas age for sure.Nibbles and Doodah came from very good places , so that gives me hope that all will be well with them. That has been a hard and expensive lesson,but a lesson learned none the less.I count my self less naive,not all goat people are good goat people.

This blog is a journal of sorts ,an honest one, not just the good and successful things that happen but  also the mistakes and heartbreaking failures. I feel like it would be some sort of lie or half truth if I did not write  of how things are really going.When you are basically starting this kind of life from scratch, without a clue except what you read on line and in books,...well...your going to have set backs.I don't think anything is as good as life experience.That is just part of it I know. Will I stop being attached to our animals,no way! Will  be a wiser person,I hope so.

I want to say thank you to all of you who gave me kind words of support and well wishes through this.I know many of you have experienced this already your selves. It is just ..well..so sad.

I will never forget our little Murry Von Furry Pants.I am glad he was with us,even for a short time.I will miss him terribly.

18 comments:

Barbara said...

Oh My, Bare with me as I am sitting her crying. I do know what you are going thru and how much you miss Murray. (Pause, to take a breath.) I am balling my eyes out because I do know. You cannot give up on goats and yes you and your son are goat people. I am crying because I know your pain. I had three babies just like Murray last year that I lost. I had purchased them from goat people who out of ignorance sold me three sick babies. I was knew to the goat world and did not know any better. I know better now and have three goats that bring me immense joy. I am sitting here typing this at the window in which I watch them play.
Like you I had them into the Vet everyday and even one night at 2 am calling the vet at home forcing him to meet me at the office. Like you I tried everything to save them. My point is that it is going to take some time to ease the pain of missing Murray but please do not give up on being a goat person. I did for awhile and God brought them back into my life by forcing me to step up to the plate and recognize that I am a goat person and I need them in my life. I am so sorry for what you all are going thru right now. Please know that you all are in my prayers and I also love Murray. I came to love him thru your blog and I am so so sorry for your loss. Murray Von Furry Pants was so special and my heart aches for you and your son.

Melodie said...

Barbara,
I have been thinking of you and what you have gone through and how you now have your new trio.Deep down i know we will never be able to live without goats...but right now.. my heart is broken.Thank you so much for your kindness,I means more than you know.

IsobelleGoLightly said...

Oh no...lovely little Murry! We are all so sorry here and will always remember him. Many goat kisses, horse snoodles, chicken purrs and dog licks to you and your family from all of us.

Farmgirl Cyn said...

Oh dear Melodie...I am SO sorry. What a huge loss for you and your son, especially. I knew from the post title that Murray was gone, and could hardly bare to open it. My heart also aches for you all.
Blessings and healing,
Cindy

Mrs. T said...

I am so, so sorry to hear about your loss. I was just getting to know Murry, but he was so adorable.
I could tell how much you loved him because of the many pictures you posted of him, which I could never get tired of looking at. I've lost pet dogs and cats and I know the empty feeling after they're gone. Like you said, you have comfort in knowing that little Murry was so loved and well cared for. You did everything you could.

Pricilla said...

Melodie...I just don't know what to write. I felt so awful when I read your headline. He was such a cute little guy.
You are right that not all goat people are good people, just like not all PEOPLE are good people. Stick with it. It will reward you.
Goat hugs.

goatmilker said...

So sorry to hear. You will be in my prayers. Rebekah

Melodie said...

Thank you all so very much.

Linda said...

Oh no! I'll cry a few tears for you too. I feel so bad for you, I really don't know what to say. {{{hugs}}}

Joanna@BooneDocksWilcox said...

There is a myth that goats aren't fragile. I told ya that not so long ago a friend emailed me a photo of Murry standing on your dishwasher door, and she received it from a friend in PA. I'll let them know that Murry passed, like me, they will be heartbroken. I'm sad for Murry, his mother, you and your family. Wish I had the words to comfort you Melodie, know that y'all are in my thoughts and prayers.

Texan said...

I am so sorry, I just can't even tell you how sorry I am for you guys... I know your heart is broken... I am just so sorry...

DebH said...

Oh no, I am just So Very Sorry! Been there along with you worrying too and I know you did all you could do. You are good people with good intentions and it just happens. I will be thinking of you and please take care.

Foothills Poultry said...

I so sorry you lost him. I don't know what else to write, it is so hard to lose a friend. We all get so attached to our critters so fast.

~~Matt~

jaz@octoberfarm said...

OK...I CAN HARDLY WRITE THIS. I JUST TOLD EVERYONE THAT MURRY DIED AND THERE WAS A collective groan through the house. sorry about the caps lock. i can hardly see because of the tears. teddy feels awful too. he was the sweetest little goatie. you gave him the best life possible for the short time you had him. i will write more later. i am too upset now. i will be thinking of all of you!

Claire said...

I'm so so sad about this. I know exactly what you mean about being new to this life and wondering if you have done the right thing. We have been through much of the same, and especially when we lost quite a few lambs last year, we were devastated. Likewise our first goats were born outside when we didn't know she was due, and they died of hypothermia. These are the hardest lessons I have ever learned in my life, and they stay with me. I never forget, but I come to terms with the losses. I hope you can do the same in time.

small farm girl said...

Oh,I'm so sorry for your loss. Murry was such a special little fellow.

Farmgirl_dk: said...

Oh Melodie :-(. This is so awful, I'm so sorry to hear about Murry. I know this little guy had such a special place in your heart.

Animals with Opinions said...

what you need is some serious goat therapy. trust me on this. get a bunch of cookies, go to the goats, scratch them, and feed them cookies. trust me you will feel so much better and it will remind you of how fabulous we are. im sorry about the little guy as is my human, she had something similar happen. oh and talk to the goats while you scratch them. most of us listen well. you might want to bring a chair cause they might want to sit while you scratch. only kidding the chair is for you. best of luck to you and don't give up.

gerald the therapy goat